And the Dads had to get in on the act in the players' locker room...
After the tour, we traveled the rest of the way to the ranch, where we met up with Brad's sister, her husband, and their sweet little girl, Faith. We don't get to see her very often, because they live in Waco, so we really enjoyed our time with her. Here she is checking out the pool...
Playing with a new toy...
And hanging out with her oldest cousin, Bethany...
We really didn't do much after we got to the ranch...other than a trip to the grocery store, we didn't even leave. We basically just hung out by the pool, grilled burgers, and played games. We had our first-ever Sullivan family Bunco tournament, and enjoyed playing Apples to Apples and Phase 10.
Hannah would have absolutely loved every minute of it. There was nothing she enjoyed more than spending time with her family. She was the oldest cousin, and thought her younger cousins were hilarious...even when they weren't trying to be. She would love playing with Faith, who was born just two months before she went to Heaven. She always loved playing games, although we never could figure out why, because she almost always lost. And while we were there, I missed her constantly, and kept feeling like she should be there...but it wasn't an unbearable weight. We shared many fond remembrances of her while we visited...and it was okay.
I dreamed about her last night. That's only the second time I've dreamed about her since she died. Most of it is pretty hazy...Someone (maybe Bethany) was shouting, "Hannah's back! She's here and she's fine!" And I ran into her room and she was sitting cross-legged on her bed and smiling. Her hair was thick and curly and she was stunningly beautiful. We hugged and talked and laughed. I have no idea what we talked about, but I could "hear" her voice and her laugh, and I was amazed that she sounded just like she did before she got sick. There was an undescribably glowing peace upon her, and my clearest memory from this dream is the unspeakable joy I felt at seeing her so healthy and whole. When I first woke up this morning, I didn't even remember the dream right away...it just suddenly came back to me mid-morning. At first it made me sad, because I wanted so badly for it to not be a dream...but then I was reminded that she is healthy and whole and beautiful and peaceful. My joy at seeing her again is simply postponed. And that joy will just be that much sweeter after this time apart!
3 comments:
Jill, I know I have said this to you before but I thank God for you being in my life. Your blog is so wonderful and so encouraging to me. You will never know how much you help me along this journey. Your faith in our awesome God is so great and I am so thankful to know you. The pics are wonderful.....I love the Dallas Cowgirls! Little Faith is a doll and I enjoy watching her grow on her blog. Thank you again for being so real and open about Hannah's life and eternal healing. It has helped me greatly when I talk to other parents at ACH.
well, i'm starting the day looking like crap. it's not just a "sullivan girls" thing! what a precious time together with your family, and Hannah was there! your dream, IMHO, was just a reminder from Him who loves you so much and is so acquainted with your grief, that your daughter is fine--better than fine, she is healed and whole! see you soon...love you so much!
God provides just what we need. Your dream lifted me also. Love you!
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